What more is to say? I lost my cool... I was under pressure and I didn't, I couldn't handle it well. Like a huge wave of emotions just crashing down in a few seconds. She didn't listen to. Wasn't trying to listen to me. I know so much that it doesn't excuse my behavior but something inside just snapped like a twig. Probably my morality cracked like a twig under a shoe. She walked away, I was yelling, she started yelling and I punched the door. Just as she was walking back towards me. After that it was just a haze. Not the bad kind just me walking upstairs feeling so pissed off, so angry at her. I slammed the bedroom door and just sat on the bed thinking what the hell did I just do.
Times like these I wish, I just wish I had someone to talk to. Someone to just listen. But instead I get the silence. I tried to talk to her afterwards. It's always about something that annoyed her. Her emotions clouding her judgement like it always is. She just decides. Nothing else to it. If she thinks it's right then it is. I don't know, something about being her needing to be right all the time.
On the edge of something terrible right now.. and I don't know how it's going to end.
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